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Joshua Holmes Barkley Fall Classic TSD1

El Clásico de Barkley (a 2017 odisea de carrera)


the barkley fall classic
frozen head state park
wartburg, tn
16 sept 2017

it is a race like no other
based on an even more insane
impossible event like no other
the barkley marathons
the race that eats it’s young

the barkley fall classic has grown quickly
to over 400 runners in just 3 years
trying to finish
back mountain trails and hillsides
to get to laz
for a bonus loop
for a 50k – mile finish
for as advertised it is more
bang for your buck than just 31 miles
some say 48 miles
the lowest estimate was 40 miles

you see
no gps is allowed at the barkley
despite incessant cicadas beeping at mile 1 and beyond

before the race started
as i was getting my gear together
while downing my fourth organic pop tart of the morning

Joshua Holmes

a race vet
in the car next to me
told me that we were required to have a light
in our drop bag at mile 22…ahem 35
i had not even brought a light from the west coast
because i didn’t plan to run past the sun
but it was for sure more of a safety precaution
in case one got lost
as frozen head state park has been known
to swallow a wardian or two before
i had my phone flashlight
but RIF member cathy downes told me
she had an extra headlamp in her drop bag i could use if needed
her kindness stuck with me
as i thought about how many nice things
run it fast members have done for me over the past few years

Laz Lighting Up Barkley Fall Classic 2017

the race starts with the laz lighting a cigarette
just like he starts the big barkley in the spring
laz lit up and we all took off like any other race
yet we all knew we were about to enter a vast unknown

400 of us dashed down the paved road
taking advantage of the smooth surface and cool temps
about 50 feet in i hear some dudes behind me saying,
“someone is really going to miss that water bottle later.”
so i remember my soft flask i had stuck in my pocket pre-race
and check my pocket and it’s not there
so i immediately start swimming upstream
against a torrid stampede of anxious and eager buffalo
i finally see my bottle and runners stepping on it
oblivious to what was going on
they just saw this runner going the wrong way without a guide
i finally grab it and spend the next few min cleaning it with my shirt

so back to moving forward in the correct forward position
all of a sudden felt like getting shot out of a cannon
the first mile is on pavement before you reach the famed yellow gates
of frozen head made famous by the barkley
the race that eats it’s young
a sort of golden arches of sorts for ultra mile junkies

everyone was full of optimism and nerves
knowing that likely just 120 or so of the 400 starters would finish the 50k
i wondered who the other 119 would be myself

any race i begin
i visualize myself with only one outcome
coming out clean on the other side
no matter how ugly or desperate it might become

as unforgiving as little bark is
there is still some insurance knowing that you can
take a marathon
more like true 50k finish
if it goes to hell or you don’t make the cutoff at laz

the first few miles from the gate were on a single track trail
the climb was pretty gradual
and not too technical

Joshua Holmes Barkley Fall Classic TSD1

even though we were slowing climbing
i pushed the pace
i had gone out aggressive
to avoid massive conga lines
to find some space
to be able to operate
find rhythm
the marvin gaye type
and not over run
to avoid being over run
or be hung up
on the heels of whoever lay before me

i worked through this section
with rif member lisa van wolde
we would move past other runners
on this single track together
which made it easier for both of us
to get by quicker using less energy

you come upon the first aid station about 4 miles in
where the coalfield boys
high school football players held the jugs
that didn’t have moonshine
but had water and sword instead

i quickly refilled and kept down the trail
until coming upon a photographer
not my first in this life
a couple of us tried to run past her
continuing on down the trail
but she quickly said, “no, that way!”
as she pointed into the true wilderness
down a ravine into a giant lake
but it wasn’t a lake but just massive fog
onto of the moguls
this was testicle spectacle

quickly into testicle
i found a steep
down where i could get no footing
i had put on my brush clearing gloves
as i knew i was about to be tested
my legs came out from under me
and i slide down the hillside about 20 feet
before i could get my legs under me again

this went on a few times
with some moderate climbs
for a mile and half or so
then we turned left into some low lying ground
and waded through a creek


luckily i was behind dewayne satterfield
who has done big bark
because none of this was marked
there was for sure no trail at this point
just some creek funk thing
that looked a bit like the forked deer in west tn

well found a road on the other side of the marsh
then quickly over a wooden bridge
we ran
into a small white country church
that had an aid station to the right of it
as advertised it had water
slim jims
and long elongated yellow fruits
this was also where we got our first bib punch
i think it was the letter i

testicle is an out and back
being near the lead of the pack it meant we were going to see
a lot of terrified faces coming at us
escaping testicle on the way out
is even more difficult than it was sliding down
into this foggy bottom


as my mouth burned from slim jims
that were obviously soaked in tabasco
i quickly found myself on my hands and knees
trying to get up the muddy hillside
it is amazing how high your heart rate rises
when you are on all fours
trying to get any grip of the earth you can
to climb up

the two way traffic wasn’t easy
people were slipping and sliding into each other
but everyone was polite and understanding

once we escaped testicle
we hit that same photographer again
for the after ts photo
as i have told other runners
always know where the photographers are


thinking we were getting a temporarily hiatus from the gnarly stuff
i took my gloves off
as we crossed the trail down into methlab hill
some parts of meth were worse than testicle
it could have been called testicle part 2
it included more butt sliding
and knocking other runners further down into the ravine
shortly after you bottom out on meth
you hit the prison

i hit it in 3 hrs 7 min 6 sec from the start

brushy mountain state penitentiary that is
an expired prison where james earl ray
the white supremacist
who killed the transcendent Martin Luther King was jailed
for many years
laz says he got the idea for barkley
back in the late 70s when ray escaped
it took several days for authorities to recapture him
but they did 58 hours later
he had only made it 5 miles in that time
due to the intense rugged mountains and lacking a garmin


the prison looked straight out of shawshank
i went in the front door
and walked through the first building
then into the second building where most of the cells where located
a volunteer told me that cell 27 had been ray’s
as i walked by and looked into 27
all i could think about
was what a cowardly
pos ray was for killing king
a man of peace


after the cells it was out the side door
into the back yard behind the penitentiary
where we scaled a ladder over the back prison wall
and down the other side
where i got my second bib punch of the morning
the letter r


the bib puncher
keith dunn
directed me to run around the back corner of the prison wall
and through a long
dark tunnel
the tunnel had a feint light at the other end of it
there was a slow stream of water flowing through the tunnel
more flashbacks to andy durfresne escaping from shawshank
it was pitch black in the tunnel
but i ran and trusted my footing would not be compromised

Prison Tunnel

then i took a sharp left
into some overgrown
green centrifuge
a couple min into it
as it started to climb
i asked another runner
if it was rat jaw
the infamous rat jaw
up the steep mountain side
under the power lines
the answer was in the affirmative

gloves back on
it was wildly overgrown
from a healthy rain season
i moved pretty quickly
up the first half of this rat’s nest
then i started to see a long line of runners stack up above me
stuck in the greenness
executing briars
that none of us could escape
i asked another runner if the half marathon was merging with us
as so many runners had grinder to a halt
stuck in the thick of it
it was so overgrown and thick with no where to go
a path had to be slowly carved
with human bodies

robert youngren
who moments before grabbed my feet below me
to give me a solid surface to climb up
as i couldn’t get a grip
started a new
revolutionary path he started blazing
with a mini train behind him
i was about the seventh car in this train
this was painfully slow but rob was taking most of the abuse
as the conductor of this train
our train was slow but steady
moving faster than the longer train
that seemed stuck in a paused motion
perhaps mighty casey had run out of steam
rob got us to the top
passing several in the other train in the process


it took time but finally we reached the top of rat jaw
60 runners had stacked up behind us

rat jaw had been the great equalizer
almost like a nascar caution flag to bring the field all back together

quickly we climbed to the top of the watch tower and back down
quick aid station stop after the tower for refills
and then some downhill jeep roads
to garden spot
then to bald knob

most vets had underestimated how hard the back side
of the race would be
since rat jaw and testacle were knocked out earlier on

bird mountain was a formidable foe
it wasn’t gnarly or impossible
but due to not knowing exactly how long the course was
it seemed to go on forever

i knew we were many miles beyond what the map said
but as they say laz miles are way longer than actual miles
like 1.5x longer
the bird mtn miles seemed to go on forever
i kept thinking we had to be close to laz and dropbags

finally we come off the trail
back onto park roads
and after about 1/2 a mile later to our drop bags
and then laz
with an elapsed time of 8:03:30 to that point


laz punched my bib
and made mention of how well i was doing
seeming a bit surprised
maybe it was because when i first met him on the ferry
in dorena landing years ago
at the start of the vol state
he looked at me and my crew
consisting of my high school cousin and his buddy
and told me
look to your left and your right
one of you will finish this race
i could tell his confidence was not in me being the one
i was very green then
i am just light
lime green now

other runners had warned me that the last loop was 9 miles
like 9 actual miles not laz miles

the climb up to chimney top was a long 5-6 mile climb
others had opted to grab poles out of their drop bags
i didn’t want to cheat my exercise routine with poles

early in the climb i was passed by a handful of hikers
i mean runners
as the climb wore on
i started to catch and reel in a couple of them
by being persistent and relentless

Chimney Top

i finally hit the top of chimney top
and you know how i knew it was the top of chimney top
because there was a mf chimney at the top of the climb
in the middle of nowhere
no house with it
no signs of a house
just a chimney and fireplace
no smoke
prevent forest fires
it was then i realized that i was at the top of chimney top
i did not need a sign to tell me

after chimney’s top started a gradual downhill
not many other runners were around at this point
another runner was in front of me
and after a mile and a sharp turn to the left down the mountain
we both started to get nervous wondering if we were on the right trail
or if we had become lost
and if so how lost where we and would we have enough time
to get back on the correct trail and make the cutoff
i pulled out my cloth map several times
and each time wadded it back into my pocket
unable to make sense of it
we both were running well
but simply did not see any other human beings
as more and more indecision began to set in

finally we saw another runner
and a volunteer
with a hole puncher and jugs of water
i refilled all 4 bottles i had with me
the volunteer punched my bib
and knew exactly how much of the course remained
he told us 2.5 miles back to laz
and about 3.4 total to the finish
and that it was all down hill

i took off running
knowing i needed to be perfect
if i wanted to break 11 hours
i knew i was about in 23rd position as well
however i didn’t know the terrain or the accuracy of the distance
but i ran hard smelling the barn
or perhaps it was myself
but either way it fueled me to another gear
that had been abandoned miles earlier

i caught a couple runners including youngren
who was probably simply tired
from sleepless nights with his new baby
and then shortly after there was laz and friends
i slowed just enough to ask if we needed another punch
laz said no and i turned it up knowing 10 hrs 52 min had expired
on the clock

1 mile
8 min or less
again was the distance accurate or not
i didn’t know
but i ran harder

another runner was alongside me
as i had caught him near laz
we were both chasing sub 11
we ran that last road like it was a legit 5k
i hit the pavement and emptied all my bottles
to get as light as possible knowing every second would matter

the other runner
nathan i believe
got a few feet in front and i followed in his wake
a couple turns hoping the end was in sight
clock ticking
a clock with no mind or mercy of what i wanted

i finally start to hear people
then i see the grassy field knowing to turn right
for the finishing arches
i see the clock at 10:59:30
i sprinted in comfortably over those 40 yards
crossing the finish line in 10:59:43


a time that would matter only to me
breaking 11 hours that would only matter to me
but it had mattered to me for several miles
because it helped me stay focused and on point
it helped me prevent bad miles
and gave me something to focus on
and help drive me those last few miles to the finish

my last mile was 7 min 11 sec

the first person i saw after finishing was my good friend
rif member and bfc rd steve durbin
it was good to see him
he congratulated me and i thanked him for an amazing event
i was then presented with the prized
croix de barque for finishing


i caught my breath
drank a few bottles of sword from the orange cooler
and then walked backwards on the course
to cheer in other runners
and root for my fellow run it fast members than remained on the course
one by one they found the finish as i had
some had made the 50k cutoff and finish
others had been turned in early
but all seemed satisfied with the effort they put forth that day

they knew they hadn’t don’t a normal race
and they were proud of the valiant effort they gave
they had been challenged in a new way
and had dug deep or discovered a new depth for the first time

after a few photos and hugs
i redeemed my post race meal card for a veggie burger
i am not even a vegetarian but it sounded like what my stomach
would agree with
and it was spot on

i beat the rat

i traded war stories from the course and other battles
with other veteran ultra runners
from the past and present
the weather had been perfect
the course ripe
and i was pleased with my effort

my goal had been to finish in the top 20 and sub 11
i was 20th overall and 18th male
in a time of 10:59:43

Run It Fast Barkley Fall Classic 2017 Finishers 2

it was a good feeling to run well
and share in so many others achievements
i wore the rat bites and dozens of flesh wounds with pride
a very special running
epic event
race directed by my good friends durb and laz

rif members before the lighting of the cigarette

congrats to all who were brave enough to toe the start
whether you got a finish or not
it takes a lot to take on a task like the bfc

thank you to all the volunteers
and football players
and friends
who were encouraging
and made it possible to finish
marathon/ultra #197

and a special thanks
to all my Run It Fast friends
who continue to inspire and drive me
every race
step by step

joshua holmes
run it fast

barkley fall classic results – 2017
photos: susan typert, daryl ann patton

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Laz’s Regret with Gary Robbins Near Barkley Finish

Lazarus Lake explains the hectic and chaos at the finish of The Barkley Marathons yesterday when Gary Robbins arrived at the yellow gate after 60 hours 00 minutes 06 seconds.

Here is what he said to clarify what happened at The Yellow Gate:

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Explained in a way only Laz can explain.

Congrats to John Kelly on becoming the 16th finisher of The Barkley Marathons. Big tip of the hat as well to Gary Robbins on an amazing effort that was just barely short. True #RunItFast Grit.

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Gary Cantrell Lawrence of Shelbyville Lazarus Lake

Asphalt in My Blood: The Maps of Lazarus Lake

Gary Cantrell Lawrence of Shelbyville Lazarus Lake

Asphalt in My Blood

i got hooked in 1970.
it wasn’t really a big deal,
i ran from tullahoma to estill springs and back.
it was only 16 miles, altho that was the furthest i had ever run.
the big thing was, i got asphalt in my blood.
from that day on,
i could not escape the call of the open road.
the map didn’t start until 1977.
i had used maps for quite a while to plan new places to run.
it was a miserable january,
and i had brightened it by getting a map of the city,
and using january to run every single road,
marking them off with a magic marker.
one night i got out my county maps
and shaded all my runs. all the places i had been.
then i cut out the maps and taped them together:
coffee, bedford, and franklin counties.
they looked dam impressive, so i hung it on the wall over the kitchen table.
the itch got worse,
and soon my map included lincoln, moore, and rutherford counties.
it was either 1979 or 1980 that tom osler changed my life.
i read some article, either by or about him, that introduced a concept so revolutionary
that it completely redefined my capabilities.
walking was not just what happened when you could run no further.
it was acceptable to walk on purpose.
and if you mixed in a little walking as you went,
your horizons expanded beyond the horizon.
suddenly i found that i was not limited to 30 or 35 miles in a run.
i could go on and on indefinitely.
in 1980 i took my first stab at running across tennessee
(north to south-125 miles seemed plenty ambitious at the time)
after making every mistake a noob can make,
i ended up aborting after 93 miles.
it was a failure that would give birth to the vol-state
(but that is another story, for another day)
as time went by, i added to my skill set and my tools.
they invented water bottles
and i got me a liquipak.
around 1983 i got a bodabelt 100-miler fanny pack.
i still use the liquipack and bodabelt 100-miler.
no better products have been produced.
growing my map became a passion.
i left on christmas eve and ran overnight to sandra’s dad’s house in dickson for christmas.
it was a hundred and some odd miles,
depending on which way you went.
i eventually went all of them,
and part of the holiday tradition became reports on where family members passed me on their way to the gatherings.
i took trips that went on for days, overnighting in cheap motels…
or cemeteries and church lawns.
my map grew and grew.
sandra took me to arkansas, and let me out.
a week later i showed up at home.
(she loves to tell people that no matter where she dumps me, i always find my way home)
somewhere along the way,
my goal became to add every county in the state to my map…
of course there are rules.
all the lines have to connect.
the map i have now is something to see.
it is 30 feet long, and 5 feet tall.
it is crisscrossed with lines;
it is not enough to do every county,
i have to do every route between every city.
the annexation of new counties eventually slowed.
(there are 95 counties in tennessee)
many of the counties are far away.
some lacked suitable roads for trekking.
and i spent a lot of happy days running new roads in counties already on the map.
but the map has never stopped growing.
i have never really had a plan.
there were so many counties, and so many runs to do.
i would just pick something new, plan it and do it.
i have seen some changes during the 43 years of this project.
the days of doing 30 miles at 8 minutes a mile,
and calling it “taking it easy” seem like a dream.
these days, as an old man with over 100k miles on the odometer, and a crippled leg,
20 minute miles feel like flying.
but i have never forgotten the ultimate goal.
altho i cannot go “fast” any more,
the horizon is still only limited by the time i have available.
last night it dawned on me that the end is drawing near.
it was finally time to sit down and take a count on what i have left.
what i came up with is 7 “runs” on my bucket list.
7 “runs” i have to do before i die.
if i could do any run i wanted.
these are the runs i would do:
bartlett to milan (haywood and crockett county)- 80 miles
brownsville bisects this one right in the middle.
convenient for making this a nice challenging 2-day run.
i ran the 1976 jackson marathon, which went into crockett, and does connect.
but that was pre-map, and apparently the actual course is lost to history.
it doesn’t count unless i can mark it in.
knoxville to tazewell (union county) -45 miles.
one good day.
mooresburg to sneedville to rogersville (hancock county)-50 miles
one long day.
i did a 60 mile run in hancock and hawkins county back around 1985, but it does not connect… yet
bristol to morristown (washington and greene counties)-83 miles
on us 11-e, i would love to do this as a continuous run of around 36 hours.
bristol to mountain city to elizabethton to bluff city (johnson and carter counties) 78 miles
up in the smoky mountains.
greenville to newport to sevierville to knoxville (cocke and sevier counties) 79 miles
i’d have done this a long time ago, except fot the smoky mt tourist traffic.
these roads used to be shoulderless, and i am not sure they are much better now.
timing will be important.
johnson city to erwin to the appalachian trail (unicoi county) 50 miles
this just seems like the run to complete my project with.
something about ending at the AT (home of so many other men’s dreams) just seems right.
there they are.
despite my physical limitations, the real obstacle these days
is my financial limitations.
but i have made many good friends over the years,
and they have been wonderful in recent years,
accompanying me on the way,
providing good company
and making it possible for me to do these “runs.”
in my dream finish,
durb, and dirt, and others who have been a part of my lifetime project
are with me on that final 50 miler.
it is on a 4-lane road, with plenty of room for us all.
i think that would be the greatest run of my life.
at the same time as i was preparing this list,
my eye was caught by dozens of other roads as yet undone.
this list are the ones to complete the map.
there is more open road calling to me than i can complete in a lifetime.
and that is the way it should be.
living is not living,
without hearing the call of the open road.

[originally posted by Lazarus Lake/Gary Cantrell to the Ultralist in 2013. Laz is the creator of the Barkley Marathons, Vol State 500K, Strolling Jim 40 Miler, A Race for the Ages, and Laz’s Backyard Ultra]

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Barkley Fall Classic

Lazarus Lake Births The Barkley Fall Classic – An Epic 31-Mile Race

UPDATE: Inaugural Barkley Fall Classic Race Results (2014)

A few weeks ago I mentioned on Twitter that a crazy race was in the process of being created that would rock the marathon racing scene. Now comes the rest of that story…

The ultra-devil known as Lazarus Lake (Gary Cantrell) has birthed another demon spawn of a race that will shake up the endurance-addicted race world. Laz is the creator of the Strolling Jim 40 Miler, Big Dog Backyard Ultra, The Last Annual Vol State 500K, and the Barkley Marathons (the hardest race in the world to finish).

Laz, along with fellow race director Steve Durbin (creator of Land Between the Lakes and Run Under the Stars), have now officially announced The Barkley Fall Classic which will take place at Frozen Head State Park on many of the same trails used in the infamous Barkley Marathons. The race will be on September 20, 2014.

Unlike the Barkley Marathons (100 miles) that takes place in the Spring, The Barkley Fall Classic will be open to runners of all levels that register and signup. However, that doesn’t mean that you will finish.

The Barkley Fall Classic will be approximately 31 miles long and have over 10,000 feet of climb and 10,000 feet of descent for a total elevation change easily over 20,000 feet. Runners will have a time limit of 13 hours and 20 minutes.

Here is a description of The Barkley Fall Classic in Laz’s own words:

on september 20. 2014,
we will hold the barkley fall classic,
with an entry limit of 300 runners….

if you are one of those people who have followed the infamous barkley marathons over the years,
and had this secret itch to get a taste of those trails and that experience;

this is your chance.

if you have been trying to enter the barkley for years,
and just cannot get unlucky in the lottery;

this is your chance.

if you want to see some of the best scenery available in the eastern u.s.,
from the primordial woods of the “north boundary” where the sun never shines,
to overlook views that extend to the smoky mountains to the east,
and the big south fork to the west;

this is your chance.

the fall classic will be a little different.

it is all on maintained trails and will be clearly marked.
there will be aid stations…
but it is still the brushy mountains.

it will not be easy.

the trails are many of the same trails featured in the original Barkley.
the core race is roughly 31 miles (with about 20,000 feet of elevation change)

runners will have opportunities to opt down and have “fun run” finishes of 9 miles, 16 miles, or 24 miles.
the time limit will be the same 13:20 as a regular barkley loop. (23.3 mile cut off is (9:00 hrs)

obviously… no pacers allowed.

and the first prize will be a slot in the original barkley…
if the winner still thinks he wants to do that 5 times in 2 and a half days!

the entry will be first come-first served.
announcement of the opening of registration was made to the barkley list first, so those lucky souls had first shot at it.

better not delay…

something bad like this doesn’t come along every day.


Laz has also been quoted as he will be surprised if 50% of entrants finish the race.

Do you have what it takes to tackle this epic challenge? Can you finish this 50K in 13 hours? Will you be one of the runners that has to opt down to 9, 16, or 24 miles?

The Barkley Fall Classic is 31 miles on paper but likely the equivalent of a 1ooK.

Oh yes, we should probably mention that the trail is likely more wicked, rough, and wild than what you’d find in the jungles of Cambodia.

You can sign up now on Ultrasignup by clicking HERE.


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A Very Rare Barkley Marathons Finisher’s Race Report (2013) – Nick Hollon

A Very Rare Barkley Marathons Finisher’s Race Report (2013) – Nick Hollon


“The first and greatest victory is to conquer yourself; to be conquered by yourself is of all things most shameful and vile.” – Plato

Prelude by Lazarus Lake

The conditions this year were impossible,
yet there were finishers.
Nick Hollon, and Travis Wildeboer,
each making their third attempt,
made a lie of human limitation…at a price.To be at the yellow gate after a Barkley finish
must be experienced to be understood.
I felt like a child at the grownups table…
listening in…
13 and 14, collapsed in their chairs, bundled in blankets,
talking with the others who had been where they had been;
in the rarified air of loops 4 and 5.
talking of experiences I can only imagine
with a combination of awe and shuddering fear

their tales are harrowing ones.
of numbing fatigue, desperate climbs and heart stopping descents,
of constant fear and uncertainty
of a time limit that is always just behind them,
when a single error could bring down everything they had worked for.

I felt, at once,
both humbled…

and elevated…

at this glimpse into the thoughts of those
who have been where no man can go
and done what no man can do.
it is hard to explain,
but seeing the barkley done makes it seem more impossible.
not less.

Just Before Barkley:

At 5:00am my friend finally hit the alarm and turned the damn thing off…The boat was rocking back and forth with a fury that caused me to develop some degree of nausea. I wasn’t feeling well as I gathered my race bib and light warm jacket for the boat ride to the start line of the race on the south side of Catalina island. Ahh! I ran back in and grabbed a few more layers, it was freezing outside and a small dingy traveling at 13-15 knots was not what I wanted to hop into at 5:30am. By 6:00am we were off, the spine chilling breeze numbed my hands instantly as I gripped tightly to the sides of the dingy while we splashed over 3-4ft waves. The sea was choppy and white caps stretched out across the ocean as far as I could see. Then a wave came from the side and soaked what little cotton clothing I had on. I was drenched, shivering, numb and miserable at 6am in the morning…”think of a happy place…think of a happy place” I said over and over again to mysel. My friends brother smiled at me and said “we’re not even around the unsheltered part of the island yet, the wind and waves get way worse around the corner.” And then we turned the corner and suddenly 9-10 foot waves rose and fell like an earthquake across a grassy field, a constantly shifting series of hills, the dingy was a small play toy for the ocean and I was a mere human…I eyed the shore and figured when the dingy capsized, it would only be about a mile swim…”think of a happy place” My friends Dad who was driving the small dingy then decided it wasn’t worth risking our lives to continue and get to the race start, we turned around…I was freezing cold, demoralized but happy to be alive as I watched a beautiful sunrise from that small dingy atop the frigid wavy ocean….Little did I know this seemingly insignificant (and stupid) moment would become a crucial point of reference to completing the Barkley Marathons 2013.

I arrived at the yellow gate a week early. As I drove up in my rental car which reeked of new car smell I could see that a few other runners had already arrived. “Barkley…ahhh…It felt good to be back…I felt at…at home…

That afternoon it started pouring rain and a dense fog blew in over the seemingly small 3000ft mountain range. Perfect conditions to train for the race I thought, as I assumed these terrible conditions were going to be far worse than what I was going to be facing the race weekend. I got out to chimney top and played around on the park trails and jeep roads, just trying to get a ‘feel’ and understanding for the region. I wanted to be so familiar with Frozen Head State Park, that by the time the race came around, I could have easily been a park tour guide. The worst training day was Tuesday. There had been snow blizzards for the past twenty four hours and there was now over a foot of snow scattered throughout the brushy mountain state wilderness — not the ideal terrain I wanted to be running in for Barkley. I went on a run anyway and in the midst of a horrendous climb I came across three white tailed deer. Their tails were long, elegant, and lifted high into the air, and they pranced through the forest and snow, making a mockery out of my small labored steps.

What seemed like an infinity at the time had now passed and my crew which consisted of my Mom, Dad and Girlfriend were now putting the final touches on my nutrition plan before trying to get some sleep before the night of the race.

The conch was blown at 8:05am, but I had already been awake and ready to go since 4:00am. I was going to be racing for the next 50+, maybe even 60hrs, and knew sleep was important but my nerves weren’t letting me have any of that.

Loop 1, Day 1, Miles 0-20,Clockwise direction, Starters 40, Finishers: 21

9:05am: A bunch of anxious, hardy runners, hikers and endurance enthusiasts lined up behind the infamous paint chipped yellow gate. The weather was crisp and overcast and I just prayed it would stay ‘overcast’ having remembered a video of the race from 2010 when it was pouring rain the entire time. I looked around and saw Bev and Alan Abbs lining up toe to toe with John Fegy and Jarod Campbell (two of last year’s finishers) and I could tell they were ready to go.The simple flick of a lighter broke the silent morning and the smell of sweet nicotine penetrated the air. It was go time.

I learned last year that being the first person up bird mountain doesn’t do much for you in terms of winning or even completing the race. So I held back with the middle of the pack, there was no need to push myself this early in the race. After all I was going to be out there for hours, no days on end. I hung back with my friend Ryan Dexter, an extremely accomplished runner who was well versed in 100+ mile and multi-day racing, I knew he had what it took to handle the sleep deprivation and pacing aspect of Barkley, so I decided he could help me with pacing and in return I would help him navigate the course. He started off with two packs though, one for nutrition and one for clothing…A bad mistake, Barkley is dangerous (well duh..) you run a very thin line each loop between bringing too much gear (weighing too much) and bringing too little gear (risking running out of food, water or inadequate clothing of which I experienced all). But clearly in my opinion, two backpacks, was over packing and I could tell by the end of the first ascent was placing unnecessary strain on his body.

It took 33 minutes to get to the top of Bird Mountain. That was a whole 11 minutes slower than my time up from last year, but thankfully I knew where I was going this time. Getting lost was just something that was not going to happen this year…I wasn’t going to allow it. After grabbing the first page at the coal bench, there was a pretty tight knit pack: myself, Ryan (a virgin Barker) and a mix of about five other hardy-looking nervous virgins and overconfident veterans. The group began to spread out as I took point down the descent of Checkmate Hill, a wicked 1,300ft descent in half a mile, which I knew I was going to have to ascend on loop 3, 4 and possibly 5.

I joked with Tim England a runner who I had come to know in the last week while training out on the trails near the course about how he had a PhD in theoretical mathematics but was being led by a guy with a BA in Anthropology and Spanish.

At this point in the race I had become what I heard other veterans refer to as ‘virgin latched’…First time racers latching onto anyone who has ever done the race before in hopes that they knew where the books were or knew how to navigate the course properly. The virgin I was with was talking about how the other veterans John, Travis, Alan and Jarod who had taken off ahead of me knew the course so well and knew what they were doing and he lamented that he was stuck back here with a potentially inexperienced veteran…Obviously he didn’t know who he was running with. Rather than verbally correct him, I decided I would lead the navigation to the next two books (the new section of the course)….book #3 flawless navigation. Book #4 flawless navigation…The virgins (and veterans) were now believers in my navigational skills, I knew having trained and studied orienteering so much was going to help. Tim England said the following in a recent recollection email,

“Coming from Leonard’s Butt Slide and heading towards Fyke’s Peak. Nick Hollon was leading, followed at some distance by Iso, Eva and Jon. I was bringing up the rear. Nick knew the area well and seemed very happy to share with us mortals. When I finally crested the rise at Hiram’s Pool and Spa, there was Nick sitting on that nappy-assed bench seat grinning from ear-to-ear and looking pleased with himself. We regrouped and off we went again.”

Then before the group really began to separate on testicle spectacle and pig head creek, the virgin who had once doubted my navigational skills was running alongside me and said, “hey I really, really appreciate you helping us back there, I don’t know how many minutes or possibly hours I could have spent looking for those books…I don’t know if you believe in karma but you’re set man, you’re going to kill the race this year” His words evaporated into the thick briar patches as I swam up the hill through slick mud and sharp briars…Having difficulty remembering that the course was this hard…

My intentions were to end the loop in around 9hrs flat. Leaving me sufficient time to refuel and get back out there for a quick night loop. I finished in 8hrs and 22mins, I caught up to Alan & Bev, Travis and John who were at the beginning of the loop almost an hour or more ahead of me.

Loop 2, Night 1, Miles 20-40 direction, Starters 21, Finishers: 5

5:00pm: I took about a twenty five minute break at the camp, just enough time to get re-fueled with some warm soup, put on some new shoes, a new shirt and change my headband for some warmer night gear. I didn’t bother putting on pants; the day had been overcast and I didn’t feel or see any rain at the time. I began walking towards loop 2 just a hair behind Alan, John and Bev with nothing but short shorts, long socks, a light rain jacket, a cotton scarf and a pair of fingerless weight lifting gloves which were already soaked in sweat from the previous loop.

I looked at Alan and Bev and they didn’t seem to be wearing much more either. Alan was just in a plain t-shirt. Risky, I thought to myself, for what could potentially be a very cold night.

I ran with John and the Abbs until the top of Jury Ridge where the course began traversing downhill. I then took off and figured I would run ahead and try to catch up with Travis who had been running strong.

After only a short few miles, I caught Travis on the ascent up to Garden Spot (book #2). The sun was now gone and although I had no idea what his face looked like we began running together. I referred to him as ‘dude’ and ‘man’ for the first few miles we ran together…As I couldn’t seem to remember his name for some reason or another.

First one drop, then another and another…Something terrible was about to happen, I could feel it in my bones. Rain, constant rain began to shower down through the thin leaves of the Tennessee forest as we made our way through briars and cliffs to the jeep road that led us to book #3. This section of the course was called Leonard’s buttslide because literally the only ‘safe’ way down the 75% grade was to slide on your butt…And now with constant showers, it was nothing but a death slide…I went down first, grabbed onto a tree and accidentally snapping it in half causing me to just tumble down through the briars and mud, I made a new personal record getting to that book! But not in the way I had intended…I don’t know how me and Travis got back up that wicked buttslide…but somehow or another we did and we were off beginning to ascend to book #4.

That’s when the fog began to set in. Like a slow creeping death I could see from a distance, my field of vision became more and more clouded while the rain remained constant. It was difficult now to see Travis and he was barely thirty feet from me. Luckily, without much trouble we grabbed book #4 and separated off down Fyke’s peak.

Not that it mattered, but I beat Travis over to the next book and decided I would wait for him and just eat something while he caught up. By the time he did, the rain had intensified and then I looked ahead at the horrifyingly steep testicle spectacle and remembered how difficult it was to climb that thing, during a dry year.

Halfway up the Testicle, it had already been about half an hour longer than normal, we had spent precious minutes stepping and slipping face first then five feet backwards on the 60% grade. There was no forward progress…No moving, every step forward was ten feet (or more) backwards…I yelled in pain as I slipped and accidentally grabbed a healthy red briar to catch myself (the red ones were the thickest and most painful). Travis joked about our slow progress and pulled ahead of me as we neared the summit and began reentering the thick fog that hovered around the 2000ft mark.

The rain was annoying and I was beginning to get pretty cold, but I really didn’t think about it too much. I knew so long as I kept moving and I kept eating something that I wasn’t going to die and so long as I didn’t die, I figured I had a decent shot at completing the race.

Well, the problem we now faced was the ascent up Rat Jaw, essentially a mess of cut down briars and fallen power lines with which desperate runners pull themselves up on. This portion was entirely out in the open. It was now raining harder than it had been all night and a gusty 20-30mph breeze had settled in among the exposed, steep ridge. As we began to ascend the first of several pitches, I grabbed the wet and slippery power line and almost immediately lost my grip, barely catching myself before falling face first into a patch of briars. Then the fog came.

This was the worst fog I had ever been in in my entire life. I know people joke about and refer to this all the time, but I literally couldn’t see my hand out in front of me. My visual field which is essential to navigating properly during Barkley was suddenly reduced to my feet and a small diameter of about five feet.

I led the navigation up Rat Jaw with Travis right behind me. I would stop every 20-30ft and ask, “Ok, do you see cut down briars on the ground?” “Yup”…” he’d reply. “Ok, then, we’re still on the right course.” We continued climbing. I felt like a blind man walking through an endless rainy, windy, cold hell. When we had reached the second to last pitch (only discernible by a large sandstone rock,) I was starting to shiver. Although I had been consuming ~300 calories per hour, I had little to nothing left in my pack now at this point, and my short shorts, light rain jacket and fingerless weight lifting gloves were no match for low 30’s weather, cold rain and high winds atop a 3,600ft peak at 12:00am at night –and this was all starting to set in and run through my mind.

I thought back at that moment to a time when I was doing another race called the Arrowhead 135, where at 2:00am in the middle of February in northern Minnesota I had crossed an ice lake with a recorded temperature of -40 Fahrenheit. Surely this couldn’t have been nearly as bad. I thought then to a time at the Death Race in Pittsfield, Vermont, where the race director made me stand in a small reservoir full of 35 degree water up to my chest for thirty minutes. Surely, I realized again, this wasn’t as bad. And finally, I thought back to the anecdote at the beginning of this race, surely this wasn’t as bad.

I knew that since I had survived and made it through all of those situations, I could certainly make it through this. As I continued to compare past experiences in my mind, we suddenly peaked out at the fire road where a headlamp kindly greeted us in the storm. A crew member of Tim England’s had braved the climb to the top of the tower at this dark hour, and as we approached the book, discovered he was caring for a runner who was curled in the fetal positions inside of a trash bag shivering violently from what looked like some degree of mild hypothermia. I couldn’t think about it much or else I may have succumbed to the same fate. I thought again to myself, I’ve survived worse, I’ve been through worse ,and I can damn well keep going. I ripped out my page, took my first step off the mountain, slipped onto my ass and started rolling. I wish it would have been a more graceful exit but I did what I could in the conditions that I had.

At this point in the race I knew, similar to the opening story, that I had to two choices: I could stay on the top of the tower and wait until I develop hypothermia and die, or I could keep eating things and keep moving down the mountain until I was relatively warm again. Unlike 16 other runners that loop, I decided to keep going.

Halfway down the climb, we came across the Abbs and John just about to start the ascent towards the fire tower. John, last year’s finisher, was shivering and wearing a rain jacket about as thin as mine when he said, “I’m in a bad place, man,a bad place.” I couldn’t help but think about the reality of his words; from where he stood, he needed to climb 1,300ft through mud, briars, fog and pissing rain just to retrieve a page from some old romance novel –A bad place was likely a gross understatement. I patted him on the back and told him that I wanted to see him finish loop 2 and that I would see him shortly back at camp. John ended up making it to the tower, but developed hypothermia and shivered his way back down Old Mac Trail to the campground. Barkley had just consumed one of its best young.

On the final descent to the prison, Travis and I spotted a distant headlamp across the valley in the forest. “Whoever it is, it looks like they’re descending.” It’s Jared, we realized! Travis quickly did some calculations: “That must mean he’s like 5-6hrs ahead of us…that doesn’t seem right…” We just ignored it and ran down until we descended into the prison tunnel. The moment we stepped into the tunnel, I felt the water rise to my mid-calves and a shivering chill went down my spine as I looked down the distant tunnel to pitch darkness. Worse still, the tunnel was leaking, and every 10-15ft a downpour of prison water would fall onto me like a crappy shower in a cheap motel. I couldn’t help but think about the millions of small bacteria of murderers, rapists and other psychopaths that was now traveling down my face being carried by the water. It slightly disgusted me, so I pulled my hood a bit closer and picked up the pace.

Although the next two ascents were the most difficult climbs in the course, Travis and I were excited. The Bad Thing, Indian Knob, Zipline, Big Hell and Chimney Top were all in the forest and ran in dense leaves, which meant no mud and less rain! It took my mind off of the fact that both the Bad Thing and Big Hell were 1,500ft+ climbs in a little over a mile.

We navigated perfectly up to the capstone where the ‘Eye of the Needle,’ the distinct course marker for Indian Knob, was located, buut the fog was so thick that we couldn’t see anything. One rock was indistinguishable from the other rock, one ridge looked the exact same as the next ridge… we could have been going in circles for all we knew. I quickly made the decision to navigate over to the Mart’s field trail to the north of Indian Knob, a definite trail and an excellent handrail on the map for relocating our position on the course. Within minutes we were able to relocate and find the ‘Eye of the Needle,’ avoiding what could have been a potential disaster.

When we got to the spot where the book was supposed to be, though, I panicked and looked around. There was no book! Travis and I spent about five minutes searching the knob before concluding that someone had taken the book and misplaced the thing. Jared must have shown up, seen that the book was missing and quit, I figured; perhaps that was the distant light we saw. Or perhaps the conditions were so bad tonight that Laz had cancelled the race for the safety of the runners? What a nice guy, I thought…And then I remembered: Laz would never do that. He was probably rolling around laughing ,busy playing taps as hoards of runners poured into camp, begging to be tapped out of their misery.

I left a note so that the Abbs and John (who I didn’t know dropped out yet) would know that we had passed through but hadn’t see nthe book. I figured if they grabbed my note and showed it to Laz, that would verify that we all were at the book, despite the page not being there. Travis and I navigated the rest of the loop quite flawlessly. I had, at this point, mastered the mental strength and sheer determination it was taking to stay warm. It was really a combination of moving and eating; if I stopped doing one or the other my soaking wet short shorts and light rain jacket would surely not be enough and I would have soon succumb to the same fate as John and the other 20 runners on that dreadful night loop.

Loop 3 Day 2, Miles 40-60 counter-clockwise direction, Starters: 5 Finishers: 5

I got into camp 10-15 minutes before Travis, giving me enough time to get settled and slow down for a 45 minute nap. I had learned from past years that taking naps during Barkley was essential; after all, I was trying to move my body for potentially 60hrs. I discussed with Travis on the way in, too, that a well-rested body and mind can move and navigate flawlessly, where as a sleep deprived mind and sloppy body will make countless mistakes and waste endless hours ‘out there’.

Before I left camp, I saw a very broken and shivering John Fegy and heard word of his close encounter with severe hypothermia. I was happy to see that both him and the runner close to death at the top of the tower were now both back at camp, safe and warm, a feeling I knew I wouldn’t get to experience until at least 38hrs from then.

Travis left camp first. He was about five minutes ahead of me until I caught him going up to the third switchback in the reverse direction on Chimney Top. We passed the Abbs who were descending into camp and I quickly verified with them that there had been no book at Indian Knob, but they hadn’t grabbed my note, which turned out to be ok. Laz had believed us and actually given me another book to bring back out there and replace the one that had been lost.

Before long, we ran into a broken and beaten Jarod Campbell. The guy who had finished Barkley last year in 56hrs flat was now shuffling down Chimney Top with a beaten expression on his face. “I’ve been lost for at least seven hours,” he said in an exasperated and tired voice. He had completely botched Indian Knob. It turned out that the book had actually been at the knob,  but on the opposite side (some runner had misplaced it while trying to put it back). Jarod ,who was navigating by visual field and not by compass, knew that when he came across the book he was supposed to go left and did so, not realizing that left in this case (because the book was on the opposite side of the knob) was actually the direction he had come up already, hence the distant light Travis and I saw during loop 2.

All of loop 3 was navigated near perfectly, with very few mistakes and very seldom lows. Hallucinations had not yet set in and Travis and I had maintained constant conversation, keeping each other attentive, busy ,and focused on the course. However, we communally decided that we could take this loop ‘easy’ in order to conserve energy, memorize the markers in the opposite direction for the night and really focus on nutrition. Though the intentions were good, we ended moving  too slow for comfort, and I arrived in camp ahead of Travis and about an hour before sundown.

Loop 4 Night 2, Miles 60-80 counter-clockwise direction, Starters: 2 Finishers: 2

I had been here before: this fatigue, this tiredness, this exhaustion. This was loop 4, the second night, my nemesis, and my worst enemy at Barkley. I knew what I was up against now, though. I knew the sleep deprivation, the hunger, the sleepiness, the delirium were all going to set in shortly. I just needed remember all of it was temporary…temporary…temporary…

I took a thirty minute nap before heading out on the fourth loop, I knew it was going to be difficult and I knew that if I didn’t get sleep now, I was going to either misnavigate or hit an extreme low like I did last year. So, although I was only a mere three hours ahead of the cut-off time, I sacrificed an entire hour to sleep to mentally prepare and fuel myself for the next loop.

Travis took off before me again. We were now the only ones left on the course. Jarod, Alan and Bev had all managed to get in Fun Runs this year, and as for the other 35 competitors, they all got a healthy taste of what Barkley is like in rough weather. I was now hiking through the forest, but I wondered if really I should be racing through it. Suddenly, I felt the urge to catch Travis and start pulling ahead of him. After all, this was the fourth loop! Mile 60 of 100, I thought. It was time to start surging or at least stay close to your competition. I pulled off about 3-4 switchbacks ahead of him on the climb up Chimney Top. I was breathing pretty hard. My heart rate was high and I wasn’t able to chew or really eat any food because I was working too hard. What I was doing was not ‘sustainable.’ I slowed down and Travis caught me before the final pitch of Chimney Top.

Out of instinct, I told him I had started to compete with him on this loop and that I was feeling the need to pull ahead for some reason. “Why? We’ve got a while left in the race. We should stick together through the night, motivate each other and nail navigation like we did in loop 3. I know the last loop was slow, but we just need to pull that off again this loop and then we can sleep for a whole hour before taking it ‘easy’ on the fifth loop.” His logic resonated with me as we began descending down towards the beech tree. I guess I had no rhyme or reason to be competing with him yet. He had helped me out with navigation just as much as I had helped him and we were working great together as a team; I had found myself constantly motivated and well-fed when I was hanging with him.

We were dead on pace in comparison with the last loop when we neared the summit of the tower. Travis’s crew was cheering for us in the far distance, and then he started to break into what I thought was an extremely appropriate song: “Where is my mind? Wheeerrreee is my mind? Way out in the water…I see it swimming…” And then I tried to sing along as my voice cracked trying to imitate the lead singers high pitched voice: “Except for the little fish”…my voice cracked. Everyone was laughing, and we were awake, smiling and full of energy. We quickly grabbed our page and  headed back down the mountain into the endless climbs of the second half. It wasn’t until we reached the summit of Meth Lab Hill that it dawned on me that I was now in new territory. Last year ,I had quit here, atop the testicle, alone in the solitude of 2:00am. I yelled violently into the empty woods and cursed myself for being such a miserable failure. This year was different. I gave my middle finger to the spot where I had fallen over last year and taken a nap. Travis and I  raged on.

Close to book #4, near the reverse of Leonard’s Buttslide, things were really starting to fall apart. Hallucinations, sounds, and images were all starting to become horrifyingly real. I could stare at almost any rock, tree branch, stump or stick and suddenly it would become some wicked animal and start slithering, hissing or just staring at me from a silent distance. Travis was convinced he was hearing voices speaking to him from the creeks and kept telling me that auditory functions are usually the first to go when hallucinating. What I always experience is far more visual.

At the Garden Spot roughly 8 miles from camp, I decided to drink an entire energy drink and mow down a bag of skittles. I felt great for about ten minutes and then started violently dipping into one of my lowest lows yet. I had foolishly pulled ahead of Travis at this point because he had me convinced that we weren’t going to make the cut-off time for the next loop if we didn’t hurry (truth be told, we were actually pretty close to the time cut-off for this loop.) I was crashing hard, though. There were centipedes, some real, some not, crawling all over the ground, and  I heard a baby crying somewhere in the distance. When I looked back, I saw a runner dash behind a tree. I stopped for a moment. I then turned around and investigated the other side of the tree. Nothing. A few miles later, I heard Travis in the distance yelling “Help!” “Help!” I stopped again, turned around, but coudln’t see his headlamp or a light in the distanced. As I turned back around, I glimpsed something else dashing behind a nearby tree. There were a few snakes on the ground that turned into sticks as I stepped on them, and a porcupine and a weasel, possibly real, possibly not, were playing around on the trail towards the top of Jury Ridge. I was really starting to lose it.

And then it happened: the worst low of the race. Emptiness. Vast nothingness. It wasn’t depression, nor was it sadness. The problem was, it wasn’t anything. A hollow emptiness slowly crept into my soul. I remembered Thomas the Choo-Choo Train from when I was a kid. “I think I can, I think I can, I think I can. Come on, Nick, come on, Nick, come on, Nick.” I started to cry out of delirium; then I laughed and saw a menacing, shadowed figure dart behind a tree and chuckle. “Come on, Nick, come on, Nick,si se puede, si se puede, si echale ganas guay…ponte perro…vaminos! Come on, Nick. Keep your shit together.” Then I started to pretend I was my parents: “Nick, we’re so proud of you, keep going ,Nick, we believe in you” I said to the forest. Suddenly, I was some of my friends from high school: “Nick, you crazy guy, how do you run so far?” Then I was my girlfriend: “Come on, Nick, keep it together, you got this, you can pull through! I love you! Come on!” I was everyone, all at once. Ten or twenty different people possessed my body for the next thirty minutes as my mind drifted off into the clear, obsidian sky that night. I just had to make it to sunrise…I just had to make it to sunrise…

When Travis caught me I was talking to myself and cursing at some deer that had been whispering incoherently to me. It was good to talk to someone human again, though my parents, girlfriend and friends all kept me company. I began to doubt they were there. At least I knew Tra? Travertine? Trevor? Traroy? I couldn’t remember his name. Who was he? What was I doing in this forest? Barkley, Barkley. What a strange sounding word… “Hey, man,” I said, since I couldn’t recall his name. “How are you holding up?” “Dude,” he replied, (maybe he didn’t know my name either) “I’m not doing so well. I’m seeing things like mad, man. You?” I responded “Yeah,  definitely…it’s pretty rough. We should probably stick the rest of this loop out together.” As I fell behind his pace on the downhill, I knew I could have run faster, but I didn’t want to risk losing my race to my mind at this point. I had come too far and I wasn’t going to let insanity stop me.

On the last climb, nerves got to Trev…Travis…and he began surging up Checkmate Hill. I couldn’t keep the pace and my stomach wouldn’t shut up. It was as if I was battling against three different forces throughout the entire race: my mind (which was lost on loop 4), my body (which was in a constant state of loss since loop 2,) and nature (which constantly beat me down each loop.) Sometimes these three forces worked together, and sometimes they fought fierce battles against one another. The sun was just starting to peak up and as the more vivid and frightening hallucinations began to fade and the climb came to an end, I was thankful that I was through the worst of it.

Loop 5 Day 3, Miles 80-100 counter-clockwise direction, Starters: 2 Finishers: 2

I came into camp about two to three minutes ahead of Travis despite him pulling ahead on the climb, I managed to catch him on the downhill, he had worked out the math and informed me that we only now had about 45mins of ‘cushion’ to make a sub-12hr loop for an official sub 60-hr Barkley finish.

At 8:15am, I started off in the counter-clockwise direction for my final loop, I was anxious to get going and worried that I may not be able to produce a 12hr and 45min loop at this point…especially if I got lost…

“I want to be in you when the sun goes down…oooo yyaaaaaaa….I want to be in you when the sun goes down….oooo yyaaaaaaaa” This was the worst techno song I had ever heard in my life…The sun was just starting to come up over the mountain when I ascended rough ridge for what I realized was the last time…I paused, took a look around, admired the rhododendron and plodded down the hill…That stupid techno song…It was ruining my mood, “gah a snake! Nope that’s a stick…Oh look a pig! Nope, that’s a log…” The hallucinations were still coming in pretty strong. I could hear voices whistling in the wind and speaking to me from the distant creeks, indistinct but audible. I had clearly lost my mind somewhere on the fourth loop, but that was ok, I really didn’t need it anyway, it was starting to weigh me down.

At the top of Chimney Top Trail in the rising sun, I spotted what looked like the same three deer I had been seeing throughout the entire race. Spiritually, I decided that those deer were my crew watching over me during the course, my mom, my dad and my girlfriend, carefully watching over me ensuring that I completed Barkley this year. I muttered to myself and the deer, “frikkin’ showoffs…” as they pranced away at what I figured was a 5:00min/mile up the mountain…I bet those deer couldn’t run Barkley non-stop…

By the time I hit the top of Chimney Top, I was awake. I felt new, almost fresh. The sun was finally out –I literally hadn’t seen it in about a week; it  had been raining, snowing, overcast or raining again. But now the air was fresh, the trails seemed dry, the sky was blue and the sun was there and that was simply enough.

I slowly awoke while simultaneously moving and navigating through the course with perfect accuracy. I would like to think that at this point, it would have seemed unnatural to me to even deviate slightly from the route that I had been running now for the past 30+hrs of my life.

When I began ascending lower Rat Jaw, I looked at my watch and realized I was moving about 45mins faster to this point than both loop 3 and 4. Something had either left me or taken over me.

Halfway up the climb to the top of Rat Jaw, I came across a dark coal filled mud puddle. I then turned towards the trees and addressed the woods of Tennessee, “Barkley, you have taken my blood, you have taken my pride, you have taken my strength…I will now take from you your blood, your strength and everything you have left…You have left me nothing…I will strip you bare” I took off my shirt and dipped my fingers into the soft, dark mud and coated my arms and face in the Barkley blood.

I raged down the hill and disappeared around the corner before I could even process how quickly I was moving. Travis was headed in the opposite direction, as is customary in Barkley tradition (you don’t want the runner to experience the whole race without being alone now do you?) And I was worried that if he was near Rat Jaw, that he would have a more than decent chance of beating me back to camp. I raged up the rest of the climb, in a state of fading admiration and respect for the course. In the default world, I constantly yearned to find climbs this steep and here I was complaining about it? No that simply won’t do, I cherished that moment from then on and began singing a Modest Mouse song out loud. Then in the far distance, I noticed my girlfriend and mom atop the jeep road at the radio tower and once within earshot of me, I let out a raging roar. As I got closer, I got happier, this was the last time I had to ascend Rat Jaw…I said with my arms flexed out to the side leaning back on the last steps of the climb, “DO YOU THINK THE BRIARS ARE YOUR FRIENDS?? I WAS BORN AMONG THE BRIARS!!” doing my best to impersonate Bane from the most recent Batman movie, my mom and girlfriend cracked up, hurried me over to the book and filmed me as I ripped out one of my last pages. “Nick, we will see you back at camp at around 7:00! Go kill it!”

As I came down Pig Head Creek, I made a last minute decision to descend Danger Dave’s climbing wall instead of Pussy Ridge, for which I had taken all of the other four loops. Danger Dave’s is an 85% grade and descends about 200ft in roughly 0.0001 miles…it’s basically a 200ft cliff with some cushy leaves on it so you can fall semi-gracefully. I don’t know where the energy came from, but I gracefully flew with style down Danger Dave’s, making fresh tracks, apparently I was the first and only runner to attempt this ridiculous descent this year. I figured the blood I took from Barkley was in some sort of Buddhist-Karmic sense making me ‘one’ with the forest.

When I finally met Travis going the opposite direction, he was about half-way up testicle spectacle moving at a decent stride. “Have a good hike!” he said.  I still couldn’t remember his name from the previous night…and said “best of luck to you man!” I was down Testicle Spectacle in a record eight minutes. I don’t know how I was moving so fast.

And then as I was ascending Fyke’s Peak for the last time, I noticed what had been there all along on this entire loop. There was a light breeze blowing at my back, pushing me forward. This breeze was the manifestation of the love, support and positive energy outpouring from those who were watching me at this race, the fellow ultrarunner’s, the fallen virgins of the race, my friends, my family. They were the wind at my back and suddenly, I realized why I felt so good and why I had that energy on the fifth loop…it was simply the wind pushing me along.

The hallucinations returned towards the top of Fyke’s Peak, a runner in a red rain jacket disappeared behind a tree, and then another runner in a blue flannel yelled out to me before disappearing behind another tree to my left. Ahead of me an older man was walking in a yellow rain jacket, leaving boot prints in the muddy ground. None of this was real…or was it? I liked to believe at this point, these images, these people, were real, they were the spirits of those fallen, of those who didn’t make a loop, a fun run or a finish and their souls were doomed to walk the Barkley forever. I wasn’t going to become one of them.

As I was listening to the sounds of my feet shuffling through the leaves on my ascent towards Garden Spot for the final time, I thought hard on the word ‘final.’ It was so weird for me to be using that word ‘final’… ‘final’… this was it, these were the last times I would have to be out here. I paused, took a look around and just stood and admired the sheer beauty of the course. The waterfalls, the yellow beech trees, the moss-covered and dirty sandstone caprocks…I had really come to love this course and this part of Tennessee. Now, getting to run through it for the last time…it almost felt like I was saying goodbye to a really good friend who was moving to another state or something for a job promotion. What I felt was a combination of elation, respect, admiration and sadness.

The cocktail of emotions, hallucinations and wind blowing at my back was producing some extremely powerful energy as I burst into one of my more powerful runner’s highs.

It was a furious and ephemeral high I yelled as loud as I could into the empty woods of Tennessee.  Lyrics from a techno song my uncle had once shown me, “is THAT ALL YOU GOT?!?!? LET ME SEE YOUR WAR FACE!!! AHHHHHHH!!!”  The raw stumps that were my legs were suddenly oiled and moving at break neck pace (literally–had I fallen–I would have broken my neck!) I was pounding out what felt like miles…only to discover thirty minutes later when the high was finally wearing off that I had only covered about 1 mile.

I stopped and stared at what I thought was the most beautiful bird, an extremely vibrant orange and red cardinal just sitting atop a leafless gray tree. As I got closer and admired it, I was happy to see it wasn’t flying away…when all of a sudden it took off, but not like a bird…like a leaf and fell slowly to the ground…

I was now on the final ascent of Barkley 2013, I knew I had the finish within my grasp, I figured Travis had already finished now and that I was definitely going to be second place, none the less, I powered up the final climb, looking back, catching the last few glimpses of the last 57+hrs of my life.

“NOW YOUR PLAYING WITH POWER!!!! GRAHHHH!!!!!!!” A manic insane yell exploded from my mouth, my legs were bleeding, my knees bruised and on the verge of collapse, my shoulders throbbed in pain….I split the distance between me and impossible….coming up over the final ascent before reaching the Cumberland trail I was getting anxious…I started hiking quickly and then nailed a huge rock with my right foot and fell face first into the leaves right at the final steps of the climb…Barkley…you bastard…you don’t get to have the last laugh…not this year…this year is mine!…and down to the steps of doom I went…I had tears coming down my face…I wasn’t crying, I wasn’t laughing…it was some strange combination of laughing, crying, breathing and running a 6:00min/ mile…

Once I hit the peak of Bird Mountain I looked at my watch…6hrs and 29mins…I wanted to be done by 6:45…let’s get flying Nick–this ain’t no sob story, GO!!

And then I fiercely raged…raged like no Barkley runner has ever raged before…with the spirits of ultrarunner’s past and present at my back, those three deer somewhere in distance watching over me.  I was the impossible.

As Laz said, “we made a lie out of the human limitation” no one should ever be capable of running that fast after running for 57hrs and 20mins straight…however, I was running as if I was competing back in a high school cross country meet…flying around each corner with such precision and accuracy while placing my feet for microseconds on the tips of rocks, roots and muds as I floated over this hellish terrain for the last time.  In what I figured was a few switchbacks away from camp, I let out a huge roar into the empty forest…had there been anyone not associated with the race I would have scared the living daylights out of them…Tick—Tick–Tick…it must have looked like I was coming back from a 5k the way I was darting through the forest.

Laz described what he saw in the distance as a fast moving blurry image somewhere up on the mountain…And then the final muddy switchback…the end…this was it…all that had come to be…all that I had become…was about to end. Without thinking about it, I ripped off my earphones from my iPod that were still fresh with the blood and sweat from the descent, flexed my arms and let out a mighty roar as I raged at what must have been near the fastest 200 meters of my life and slammed my fists onto the yellow gate as Laz, my family and the few remaining Barkers burst the silence of the woods with applause.

I have watched at previous years Brett finish, Jarod finish, John finish, it had always looked like such a struggle such a difficult and labored motion…over-exaggerated arm swimming, legs that looked broken, a face that said it all…I was nothing like them, if only for that 13 minutes it took me to cover the last 2 miles of the race…I was immortal…I was invincible…I had just conquered the impossible and was damn well going to look like it…Barkley…I wasn’t going to let it have the last laugh….

My message to you all at the end of this race report..isn’t that I hope you ever complete Barkley…but that you find something or have something out there in the world that is your ‘own’ Barkley and that you decimate it….Forward, relentless, determination…A wise friend once asked me “what’s the wealthiest place in the world?” To which I simply replied, “ probably China…because of all the billions of people or maybe the Middle East? Maybe even Africa with all their diamonds and natural resources? No…wait…” The expression on my friends face was unwavering “…ok, ok so maybe something more metaphorical…uh…the United States?”  “Why?” he demanded. “..uh…because of the vast amount of opportunity and chance for upward economic mobility?” “No Nick…none of these places are the wealthiest…if you look at life’s value as a collection of ‘lived experiences’ not monetary wealth…than the ‘wealthiest’ places in the world are graveyards, cemeteries, burial grounds…why? Because this is where everyone has gone with their un-lived experiences, this is where the person who never ran that 5k, ran that 10k, wrote that book, sung that song, painted that picture, talked with their dad again, quit that job they hated, this is where people have taken their hopes and dreams to the grave.”

I understood immediately at the moment what he meant. As I wanted nothing to do with it, I resolved that my grave will be nothing but a pile of bones and a corpse with the bearings of heavy use. I encourage you all to do the same, find your own Barkley and do your part in making cemeteries that much less wealthy.

If the Barkley Marathons are the race that eats its young, I advise that all finishers (such as me) coat themselves in syrup of Ipecac prior to starting the race, in order to be less appetizing.

Nickademus Hollon XIII

RELATED: Nick Hollon’s Top 10 Strategies for Finishing The Barkley Marathons

Read more of Nick’s ultra running adventures on his blog ‘NICKADEMUS

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2013 Barkley Finishers – Nick Hollon and Travis Wildeboer

Nick Hollon and Travis Wildeboer Finish The Barkley Marathons

Today was a historic day in the ultramarathon world as Nickadedemus ‘Nick’ Hollon became the 13th man to ever finish the famed Barkley Marathons, the toughest 100 mile race in the world, that takes place at Frozen Head State Park in East Tennessee.

Shortly thereafter Travis Wildeboer became the 14th man in history to finish the race.

Many experts thought that no one would finish the race this year with three having finished it last year.

The rugged and extremely tough course consists of five 20-mile loops with nearly 60,000 feet of elevation gain and loss (120k change).

Hollon finished (and won) the race in 57 hours and 41 minutes.  A bit over 2 hours before the 60 hour cutoff.

Wildboer was just a bit behind finishing in 58 hours 41 minutes.

The race was created by the devious Gary Cantrell (Lazarus Lake).

Fourteen men have now finished the race in it’s long history. A woman has yet to but that will likely happen in the next couple of years.

Congrats to Nick and Travis on an amazing feat!

[photo via @lord_balls]

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<em>The NY Times</em> Love for The Barkley Marathons

The NY Times Love for The Barkley Marathons

Two things you might not put together, The New York Times and The Barkley Marathons, happily married this morning when the esteemed paper did an extensive article on The Barkley Marathons which is more of a recluse, as far as races go, than the late Howard Hughes was back in the early 70’s.

It’s a nice piece that delves into the history of the race and gives facts and winners that less than five people in the world probably knew beforehand.

It rightfully gives Gary Cantrell ‘Lazarus Lake’ the credit he deserves for the tough and challenging races he conjures up in his sick brain.

Here is how Dave Seminara of the Times described the race:

It is a 100-mile footrace that some say is actually 130 miles or more, through unmarked trails with names like Meth Lab Hill, Bad Thing and Leonard’s Buttslide that are choked with prickly saw briars. Temperatures often range from freezing to blistering on the same day, and there is a cumulative elevation gain of more than 60,000 feet, or the equivalent of climbing Mount Everest twice from sea level.

A 60-hour time limit forces runners to run, climb and bushwhack for three days with little or no sleep. They endure taunts from the race director, who deliberately keeps the competition’s entry procedure a mystery. It is a race in which there are no comfort stations and runners cannot use a GPS device or a cellphone.

Less than 2 percent of the nearly 800 ultrarunners who have subjected themselves to this punishment — 12 men, the same number as have walked on the moon — have finished the race in its current iteration. The only prize is that after 100 miles, they get to stop.

This is the Barkley Marathons, the world’s toughest and most secretive trail race.

Read the Full Article HERE. It’s a great piece that gives ultrarunning some of it’s much needed props. Not that Barkley is per se a ‘running’ race, but it is one of Satan’s most cherished events on Earth.

The race takes place every spring in Tennessee.

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